A Night Not To Be Forgotten (C. Wilde)

My poor roommate had such a rough night. Now I do feel sorry for him getting locked out while trying to be an upstanding guy and helping with house work while I was away, but I don't go out with MY friends very often and I really needed it! I had such a great night, can you almost hear my purring as I say that. I still tingle all over. I was with friends, I was safe, I was able to be myself like I have never been in public.

I am and have been a Dominant in the BDSM lifestyle for some time now. I enjoy so many aspects of being Dominant, but these same enjoyments are on my submissive side as well, only that until last night that side of me was for one person only and behind closed doors only. I have taken a lot of time in the last year to evaluate my submission, I consider myself switch, but I don't give into my sub side so easily. Last night, I just let it happen. I was so happy. I was bound, teasingly tortured, wrestled with, snuggled.....all of this with my clothes on!...but all the same I had a great time.

A funny twist. A year ago, when I met some of my friends one guy was the house boy and I was all Dom all the time. Last night, I switched to sub and he was the resident Dom. He and a female friend worked on a beautiful rope corset and kept me feeling secure all night. Another gentleman snuggled me and played with my hair. I served a drink on my knees, I crawled and was fed by a friend, I was a teaching tool for my neighbor in learning more about floggers. I felt so good, to just be myself in ways I never show. Part of me knows that my Dominant tendencies aren't going anywhere, but at the same time I want someone who understands that and sees how they can push me submissively.

Just thinking about it makes me want it more. There was no overtly sexual play, I mean technicalities really, I have things to take care of and don't want it to become just sexual. At this point, I am left wanting more, and I do.....BADLY! I mean, I throb to be touched again. I have emotionally, physically, mentally and sexually deprived for sometime. I am a typical new sub....hahahahaha, so excited and wanting it all:) I guess I have been Dom enough though to really appreciate what I am experiencing. I am happier than I have been in a long time. I feel desirable and loved by my friends and know that when I am in a relationship that I will need these things.

I will have to think on this more.....

I am working on a Dominant Resume and a Submissive Owners Manual for myself....mostly for fun, but also to put on paper what I like, want, desire. I will eventually post it when finished.

Thanks for listening!

C.Wilde