Styles and Facades (C. Wilde)

I am an honest person, but that doesn't mean that I don't wear masks. I believe many people wear certain masks and hats depending on the circle of acquaintances they are around. I used to be very bad about this and would even change clothes more than once a day depending on who I was meeting for lunch, having drinks with and so on.

I don't believe that I really have a set "style". I am ecclectic, a little hippie, a little tomboy, a little princess, a little Mistress, a little ren fest, a little trendy, a little up town girl, a little casual. I don't buy name brands, I don't wear something because everyone else is. I choose items that make me smile, make me feel sexy and are comfortable. I try to be practical.

Depending on the day, I sometimes really care less about what I look like. My roommate says to dress my best because I never know who is watching. I don't know if I agree, because if I am really only being judged by how I look, well screw them. I am a transformer and there is more than meets the eye...if you know what I mean. I work so hard not to judge others, especially prematurely. I want people to get to know me. I am a huge perv, I can turn any conversation sexual...even if the people I am talking to do not realize it. I like to throw words like "leather" into everyday conversation, and elude to my BDSM tendencies and watch others squirm a bit. I am just me, I don't like being judged, but I am sick of changing my ways to make everyone else happy. I really enjoy being wild and crazy. I am intelligent and adventurous and hopefully someone will find those qualities in me and enjoy them.

My biggest facade is probably that I am a eccentric, Dominatrix. I am eccentric and I am a Dominatrix, but deep down in places I don't let many see, I am a Baby Girl...looking for a more Dominant man. I always say I don't want to rely on a man, but in truth I would love to trust someone enough to be able to rely on them. I always show people my Dominant side and hide most of my submissive attributes, people who have experienced this side are much closer to me than others, because the real me wants a fairly normal relationship with D/s characteristics.

Well, lack of style and a few new masks.....I enjoy me!

C. Wilde