Red the color of passion and anger.....amazing how they are so similar and yet so different. I love my relationship....it has gotten better than I could imagine...we talk, we do things, he is excited about the baby. We laugh together, alot! He tells me he loves me "so damn much", he brings up marriage and our future....I love it!
All, but one lil thing....our sex life has gong to shit! I mean, I still want to be as active as always, he turns me on and I don't hide it. He says all the right things, but doesn't act. I feel our sex life has gone the way of BDSM....and as the sub, I give it to him when he wants it, but I look to only his pleasure and no one is looking for mine. Especially now with my body and hormones all different, it is more difficult to reach orgasm. I want to and I try, but I need someone who wants to do it with me. I make sure that he has at least one orgasm a day on average. I might get 1 a week if I am lucky and even then, it is usually by myself. I am starting to get so depressed that my sexual needs aren't being met and yet I don't know what to say. I don't want to ruin every other great aspect of our relationship over sex....it isn't that important is it? I used to say yes, but not if it means losing what I already have. How do I find contentment, I know he loves me, I know he wants to be with me....I don't know why he decided that foreplay was unnecessary or that we would only do it when he wanted to......UGH!
Someone help me!
C.W.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
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