"Hello Captain! It's Us Again." (C. Wilde)

Oh Captain, my Captain.....we have been friends for many years now. It has been the best of times, it has been the worst of times and yet you have marked many chapters of life with me. Thinking about that doesn't necessarily make me happy, it kind of tells me that I could possibly have a problem with alcohol. I mean, I am Wild(e), I am a social butterfly.....I love a few drinks with friends, a few drinks while dancing, a bottle of wine at dinner, a night cap when I am feeling a little sad. I love alcohol, I love feeling a bit inhibited....scary if you know the things I will do without alcohol. I know, however, that when I am sad, when life is sucking a bit, I turn to that feeling and in the end it doesn't make it better, sometimes it makes it worse, and I am not proud of decisions I have made while influenced by you, Captain.

Now please don't feel that it is just you, I am including all your buddies is this; Jack and I have been very close for a long time, and Jose and I have been known to take our clothes off together. The shot family, well they just plain make me sick, but I try to be nice and give them another try every now and again. I know you might feel like I am coming down on you, the fact is that you are doing your job, what you were made to do.( Getting ugly people laid since.....LOL) But I am the one that needs to be in control of me, not you. I am the Dominant for goodness sakes and control is supposed to be my forte, I can no longer let you Dominate me, I will not submit to your boisterous laughter(all the time). I appreciate you being there, but I am moving on. You will show up from time to time(like tonight for Mid Week Morgans), we will talk, laugh, dance....but we can't continue to have this toxic relationship.

I am 30 now and it is time to be more responsible and set examples for those who are younger than me. I can't respect myself when I am making poor choices and how can I expect anyone else to either.

Thanks for understanding. I will miss you.

*CHEERS*

C.Wilde

PS. Captain, did you have to start making your own liquor because you drank to much and could never read your maps or man your ship? Was rum a lucrative market when buried treasure went out? And did other pirates pay you with buried treasure they had found?

We can talk about this later, I would love to write more about you!