Sometimes you zig, sometimes you zag.....

Sometimes you ying, sometimes you yang......

Opposites attract....yes, but there needs to be enough similars to keep it balanced. Chris and I are very opposite. He is a cancer, I am sagittarius. I am social, he likes to stay home. I am emotional, he is pretty laid back and blahzay most of the time. I talk and get it out, he holds things in. I get frustrated sometimes because I can't read him and my emotional side wants him to be romantic, helpful, dedicated and a little emotional. I want to hear, " I love you". "I need you". " I am so happy with you." He may be happy, but it comes off content and complacent, more he could take it or leave it....not the " I don't want to be without you" that I feel for him.

I am sure I am just getting comfortable and starting to rely on him.....dare I say co-dependant tendancies are hitting. I mean, I am relaxed with him and happy. But I want to do more together. I love taking walks together....hey we have that in common. We both like the outdoors, camping, hiking, cooking. I read while he plays video games....I guess I need to get a few new books to read...maybe that would cure my boredom......

Boredom, I am getting bored and feeling couped up. I am pregnant, i don't go out and do things like I used to and I am realizing that it is going to be that way for awhile. I know I want a ring....even though he says "no relationship has a guarantee" I mean, I have been divorced twice, I agree.....but if you are only half committed or less it is much easier to walk away when shit gets tough.

He isn't excited about the baby and is stressed about everything...money, school, a job in the spring, a new apt. I mean I am stressed too, but I figure if we communicate and do it together it has to work to our advantage...and yet I feel like I am doing it alone.

Here is to love and learning about love. Love is a choice and I choose to love him even when I am frustrated :)

C.W.