Little Frustrations

Well we have lived together for a few weeks now. Nothing has really changed and yet everything has changed. He goes to class, I go to work. We share cleaning and cooking. We snuggle and watch a movie almost every night. He still plays video games and I try to sleep. HOWEVER.....we hardly go out anymore, he doesn't do romantic things like he used to, he seems less in the mood (now that my libido is back) and I am more bored by the video games. Now I try not to complain, but inside I am frustrated. He has the right to play his games, he keeps his school work done and he does make time for me. I think I am more bored because I get headaches really easy now, so I haven't been reading like I used to.

I really enjoy our walks togehter, as that is when he seems to communicate with me the most and it is healthy for us :) I am still often frustrated by his lack of outward show of commitement, and I guess I see his point. He is with me and I live with him = he is commited. Though to me I still question if it is more obligation to him?? I hope not, but I am sure it is part of it. I just wish I had something...a day collar, a ring, anything. He talks about our future together and then when I say I don't ever want him to leave, I get "I'll do my best".....I just don't know exactly what that means.

Oh well, I try to make the most of each day, whether I am bored or not. This is my last pregnancy and even the hard times I try to enjoy. I have a Dr. appt this week and will be happy to put my mind at ease a bit after hearing the heart beat again, and then in the next week or so I should have some serious movement going on and that will help me to feel better.

I worry about work and finding an apartment. Please Lord, provide what we need.

C.W.