Well, Happy July 4th. I found out on July 2nd that I was pregnant. I am recently officially divorced. Only been single for a year, a month officially. I have been seeing my boyfriend for only 3 1/2 months. He is 25 and finishing his last year of college. I have 2 kids from a previous marriage I don't see as often as I would like. I don't have a stable home or job and look what I get. I mean, yes I should have been more careful. Yes, I should have made different choices. I fall in love and give it up too easy. I mean, he is amazing. He is freaking out, as he should be. I think he is trying to not think about it in hopes it will go away. I could miscarry, but I don't think abortion is for me. We aren't telling our parents yet, or at least he isn't. I don't want to do this alone so I am telling family and friends, I need support. I don't think he will propose and make an honest woman of me, but I don't think he will leave me high and dry. I am not asking anything of him. I mean what can I ask. I just don't want to do it alone, I don't want his money or anything. I just want to be loved.
OH....and I haven't been healthy this summer, drinking beer, not eating wise. No vitamins. And I am about 10 weeks along. I will know more after my Dr. appt thursday. I have to fill out all kinds of social services paperwork and such. Men really do have it easy, married or not.
Oh well, cheers!
C. Wilde
***Time to take the Wilde out of my life before it gets me in anymore trouble.
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