Dr. Appt. Tomorrow

Well, I see a OB/GYN tomorrow. I will know more about how far along I really am. Abortions aren't done after 12 weeks unless for medical purpose. I don't think that is what I want, but I feel that is what the father wants. I am not sure if I am pushing him away or if he is distancing himself from me right now. I know we are both stressed. He still says he loves me and isn't going to give up on our relationship because of this, but that there are no guarantees for the future. I am aware of that. I think no matter what, this will change our relationship forever. If I don't feel supported, I won't be able to respect him as a man. I mean, I do respect him....he has been more than amazing at this point. We talk out every situation like adults for the most part. He is sweet and tender with me, and rough when it is called for *wink*

I know he is concerned with my health and what will happen to me, baby, miscarriage...anything. I don't want to have an abortion, but if that is how it goes the emotional repercussions could kills me and our relationship. As could a screaming child. There is no guarantee. Luckily I have great friends who will be there for me no matter what. NO matter what I choose or don't choose they will hold me. IF he decides he doesn't want me, they will still be there.

Prayers are needed.

C. W.