If I thought the breast tenderness and bloating were bad, oh no...I forgot how bad morning/afternoon/night sickness was. I can't hardly sleep at night, because I can't get comfortable. I have to get up at least once to pee and then I struggle to sleep again. BLAH!
Chris has been very helpful and attentive! He kisses my tummy and makes me flutter. Our sex life is amazing, who knew it could get better?! I mean he is such a generous lover and so attentive to my needs :) I can't believe it. Too good to be true?? Time will tell. I don't want him to know how awful I feel, so I try not to complain too much, I go to bed early and let him play games. I try to do everything like normal. I know I shouldn't hide it, as I would rather know if he can handle it....love me for me, no matter what and see if he is in for the long haul....if I sugar coat it, I may never know the truth. And I want him with me for the right reasons, not the wrong ones. I am still preparing myself to do this alone, I appreciate him so much, I am not pushing him away, just not depending on him just in case.
Dr. appt today and he is attending with me. I am not sure how either of us will feel when we actually hear a heart beat.....I am so weepy already today....goodness sakes, womanhood is just silly sometimes!
C.W.
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