That Helpless Feeling....

I turned 31 last friday, and had a wonderful birthday thanks to my magnificent boyfriend!

As the Holiday approaches, my life has haulted. My Dad (step-dad) had a heart attack tonight. My Mom called me in her broken up, yet refusing to cry on the phone voice to tell me. I am worried about him, I am worried about my mom. I feel helpless, she doesn't want me to travel at night, on bad roads while pregnant and I understand. And I am not going to travel at the moment because she doesn't need anything else to worry about. But I want to be there to hold her hand, to cover her up when she finally falls asleep, to take care of her because I love her so much. I pray that everything turns out ok and that Larry can recover fully. I pray that my mom can make it thru this, though I know she is tough. I pray that our family becomes closer after this and we say "I love you" more!

It also sends me into turmoil about my family and how much I love Chris. I want him in my life forever, and this reminded me at how quickly our lives can change. A baby is coming soon and that will be a great change. But life isn't all roses and candy. I worry about never truly being his. I work very hard to see him happy and I hope he is happy with me...especially after the baby comes.

Please Lord, look after my family as a whole, keep them healthy, happy and safe. In Jesus name I pray. Amen

C.